It's April 27th.
I'm Liz Parker and I think I've figured out why
I haven't written in this journal in nearly a year.
It's just ironic that I would figure something out really deep from like the least deep guy in America.
Hold that
You wanna go bowling?
I think that the alley is closed.
To the public. I have access.
yeah, but it's a weeknight so I probably shouldn't.
You know... commit a felony.
that's cool, maybe some other time.
Look Sean, you know despite what people say,
I think you're a really nice guy.
There's something about you Liz.
What?
I've just always thought there was something about you,
you know. Something special.
Thank you Sean, thanks,
a lot...
Uh, good... good night Sean.
Good night Liz.
No. One minute I was letting him down easy and the next minute he was kissing me,
what was I supposed to do?
I don' know, a swift kick to the huevos comes to mind.
You know what the most annoying part of all of this is?
I can't stop thinking what Max would think.
I mean why? Right? We're not even together.
God, I have spent two years of my life involved in this thing with Max
and I don't even have a date for the prom.
And now I feel guilty. Why... why should I feel guilty?
Oh you shouldn't feel guilty,
it was a non kiss, it's not like you would kiss Sean back.
Right?
Eww! I'm gonna be sick!
So you actually remember our planet?
Yes!
What are the chicks like?
- If you're not going to take this seriously... - I seriously wanna know what the chicks are like.
It's not that literal,
they're just these images.
In one way I have this, this really clear feeling about everything.
In another way everything seems so ephemeral. You know, uh...
...transient, fleeting, impermanent,
I know what ephemeral means Maxwell. It's my life.
Michael, I remember everyone. You, Isabel...
For some reason Tess is the clearest.
Um, Allie,um I know we've been friends for a long time and I, I wouldn't want to do anything to risk that.
But I'm just, I'm just starting to feel like we're more than just, than just friends.
- You know? - You are?
Uh, yeah, anyway,
i was just wondering if you wanted to go with me to the prom?
Of course! I can't wait to get a dress...
Just kill me now.
I don't do proms. I don't believe in them.
You don't believe in them?!
The whole thing is totally bogus. It's completely unnatural.
TYou know what? I,
I find it to be really unnatural that you're half alien warrior and half Grandpa Dupree!
But I make do.
I knew you were going to make this thing into a whole issue
Oh my God! This is potentially one of the five greatest nights of my life!
And if you're not going to do your part in providing that for me, then
I'm just gonna, I'm gonna seek other options. It's what I'm gonna do.
So what are you saying, that we're seeing other people?
Oh my God, you are so annoying!
- Fine then we're seeing other people - Fine!
You still reading this Hinduism crap?
It's Buddhism.
And if you're asking about my spiritual journey, I'm touched.
Well, no, actually, I was wondering if it's gonna help you get into Tess Hardings pants.
Right
No, I'm serious man.
How long are you going to let that
blonde little hottie live under your roof, before you make your move?
Hey
Oh, hey.
There's a, there's something I've been wanting to tell you.
Yeah?
The prom...
Yeah..
Yeah, it seems like Michael and Maria aren't going.
Well, I, I think that one might be a little too early to call.
It's really weird.
You know...
A year ago I was so certain that the four of us would go together.
I always picture that moment, you know, walking in through those double doors together.
I even bought a dress.
You did?
Yeah. Well, you know it was around that time last year when w
e first kissed and everything seeemed so...
...Simpler.
Yeah.
Max, I know that we're not seeing each other and I accept that, I do.
But, um, this is my prom, you know,
you know, it really means a lot to me. I, I've put a lot of thought into it.
Well, you know, we can go.
We can?
Yeah, I mean, okay,
fine, we're not together, but we're also not with anyone else.
Right. I, I mean it doesn't have to be some life changing thing.
It can just... you know we can just go and have a good time.
I would love that. Me too.
Oh, um, so was there something that you wanted to tell me.
Right, I'm starting to remember things. About my planet,
my life,
my other life.
Yeah, yeah, it's, it's weird, like,
for the first time I can remember things. You know, like what it smelled like.
What it felt like to be there.
Yeah, that, that's great.
Yeah, I've been dying to tell you.
Yeah, yeah, that, that, that must be really exciting. Wow, so um, do you remember like actual people, you know,
like Michael and Isabel?
more like their energy than what anyone actually looks like.
Right, what about Tess?
Yeah, I remember her too.
That's great.
Wait, wait, wait, wait! Driver! Driver please wait!
Damn...
Need a ride?
No, I'm fine.
Parker, about the other night...
look I, I totally misread my cards. All right? I thought I caught a vibe.
Well, you didn't.
Come on, let me..
there's not going to be another bus for half hour
Let me give you a ride to school.
Consider it my apology.
Why, why are you stopping?
The school's 2 blocks ahead.
This is as far as I can go.
From a legal point of view.
What? Are you kidding?
it's a condition of my probation.
You know, like I'm not allowed to be within a thousand feet of the school.
But um, if you want a ride home I could uh,..
I could wait for you
No I just, I think I'm gonna have to take the bus.
Right...
Okay.
Listen, about the other night, um...
I, I know it was a mistake what I did, okay?
But I, I just wanted to say that when,
when we kissed, it was um, it was the first time that I ever felt
at home, in this town. So...
Look, Sean, I'm, I'm going to the prom with Max.
well, you should've just told me you guys were back together.
I mean, I don't feed off another man's taco platter, so...
No, well, we're not back together, we're just going to the prom.
Right...
Hey, my hat's off to the guy.
What is that suppose to mean?
Nothing, just uh, you know,..
- nice operation he's got going... - An operation?
Yeah, I mean, you know, he's free to play the field and yet he's keeping you off the market.
That's not what's happening Sean.
You have no idea who Max is okay?
Because if you knew him you would know that he is above and beyond that way of thinking.
He is an incredibly, incredibly honorable guy.
So, missed your shift last night.
Alien business.
Well, we're both off tonight so
I'm willing to let you take me to dinner and a movie
so you can make up for your assinine comments yesterday.
Which um, by the way, I think it's very big of me.
I can't make it tonight.
You can't make it?
Naw, I got plans.
So I think Billy Sorian is going to ask me to prom.
Billy?
Are you sure?
Cuz I heard he was taking Amy Green.
Well, the point is, I would've said no.
What about you Alex? Anyone special?
Not right now.
Really?
Maybe someone special, from your past,
who's ready now and before she wasn't.
Isabel,
it would be my dream to take you to prom.
But then we'd wake up the next morning and
you'd be onto the next thing and I'd be right back where
I was before Sweden.
You know, obssessed, pathetic and lovesick.
So, I think, amazingly,...
my answer is no.
I'm not going to take you to prom.
Oh Kyle, hey.
Hey.
What's up?
Last year, I went to the prom with Trudy Maclntire.
Oh Trudy, she's cute.
Yeah, and so we went, and everything was okay,
but I didn't really know her, ah,
so we didn't really have much to talk about, much to say to each other.
And so I realized that I feel like I really know you.
Which is unusual for me with girls
and uh, anyway, I just...
feel free to say no, or laugh or be outraged or whatever, but..
would you... want to go to the prom?
You know, with me?
You know, I'd really like that Kyle.
Thank you.
I can't believe that we're breaking into Michael's apartment.
Believe it.
I just know that we're going to regret this.
yeah, if we don't find any evidence.
Of what?
That he's seeing someone else! Hello!
This whole thing came up yesterday. How could he already have another girlfriend?
That's exactly my point Liz.
He obviously already had this bimbo on the side and was just looking for an excuse to break up with me, ya know?
No, I just think that you are overreacting.
Bastard!
I cannot believe that Michael is seeing another woman,..
I just, I won't. I...
Snap out of it sister! Juanita! Homewrecker!
I can't believe what is going on with you and Michael and me and Max.
Liz, what are you talking about? You and Max are going to prom.
I don't know, I just feel Max and I going in two different directions, like,
like, it's like we're not able to just separate?
Makes you realize how, like, easy things change.
Because people meet other people.
I could meet another guy.
Or Max could meet another girl, and...
Or Michael could meet another woman.
Okay, just think about everything that you remember.
What did it look like?
Feel like?
Smell like?
You're not concentrating.
Yes I am.
Something's getting in your way.
What's going on with you?
Actually there is something I should probably tell you.
Liz and I are going to the prom.
So?
Max, I, I don't care about that stuff.
That's not what's important here.
This is what's imortant and we can do it.
Let's try again.
I'm okay, I'm okay.
Okay.
Why?!
Why?! Why, why?!
I just don't understand, I wish, I wish that
I hadn't seen that,
I wish that I hadn't figured it out, I wish...
Maria, we don't know for sure that anything happened.
You know we could be reading into this whole thing.
That's why you have to go and ask Max.
No, Maria,
I do not think that's such a good idea.
Please!
I see you.
You're swimming on your back.
The water's much thicker than the water here on Earth.
Heavier.
It's not quite liquid but not quite solid.
As you swim through it,
the water reforms around your body and it feels like you're swimming in...
Jello.
I remember.
I remember it.
I remember the water.
Oh my God, you did it. You made me remember.
You are like ubiquitous.
I think I might've figured something out about you, Parker.
You know what? I'm not interested!
- It might fix your problem. -Who says that I had a problem?!
Well, look at you. You look like you're about to puke,
at the very least.
Hey, do you know what? I do not need this right now, okay?
I do not want to hear any more of your stupid, inane comments.
I do not want to hear any more of your little theories on life.
And I do not wanna write my frickin name in mustard okay?
My life is falling apart!
- You wanna go somewhere? - Yes.
Ok.
step, step, step
bend,
roll,
follow through.
I suck...
No, that was,..
that was definitely an improvement.
You wanna split a beer with me?
No..
Don't even finish the sentence. Here, um, here's a coke.
Thank you.
So um,.
can I tell you my theory?
Can I stop you?
You and I are, are really different people.
That's your theory
But the thing is, that if we're so different then
why do I feel so much every time I look at you?
I mean it's not completely one sided is it?
This town.
Everybody's always looking at me, like...
there's Sean, just got back from juvie.
What's crazy Sean gonna do next?
And that's what I figured out about you.
You're not that different.
I mean this whole arrangement you have with Max,
it's like you're not together but you're not apart.
I mean I bet you can't even talk to me without wondering
what Max is gonna think about it.
But meanwhile, you're not getting what you need from him, are you?
You're suffocating Liz.
We both are.
Oh my God!
How was that?
Nice roll Parker, you're a real prospect.
What are you doing?
Lane walking.
Yeah, what's that?
There's this thing I used to do when I worked here, see...
what the average American doesn't realize
is that every lane in a bowling alley has about a million coats of oil on it, so,
if you're wearing just socks, you can kind of slide forever.
It's kind of free.
Wanna try it?
Maybe next time.
I'm gonna count on that.
What else do you remember?
Three moons,
burnt orange,
no clouds,
very surreal, like a painting.
What else?
I need a break.
It takes time.
You know, every thing's blurry at first,
but eventually, the images just get clearer and clearer.
How clear are your memories?
Most are still blurry,
but a few,
a few are clearer and more real to me than anything here in this world.
Do you remember me?
Yeah.
What was I like?
I remember when you used to reach over
and touch me in the middle of the night and when you used to hold me.
Who is it?
- Hey. - Hey.
- Sorry. - It's okay.
- Can I come in? - Oh, yeah, yeah, I'm sorry.
Last semester, Miss Rikesdale told me
that I only needed to take one more class to graduate.
So I did.
So you're graduating?
You're the only person that knows that.
So are you like, going to college?
Exactly, I have know idea.
But what I'm sure of, is that I'm graduating.
And this is my last chance to have a prom, ever.
Alex, please don't make me just sit here.
Isabel Evans, would you go to the prom with me?
- Is he looking? - No, just concentrate.
What an idiot, I swear, I hope he's lonely tonight.
beverage?
Yeah, yeah, please.
I, I'm just gonna go and sit over there.
Good, good, so I'll get... your beverage.
No, I think it looks hot, Liz.
No, um okay, I'm gonna take a...
- Hello. - Hi.
Can I get two cokes?
I caught em making out on the couch.
Dude, I caught them making out in the pantry closet in the kitchen.
- It's just so embarrassing. - I know, but there's nothing we can do about it.
It's just raging hormones. And they are our chaperones...
Yeah, it's ugh...
Hey so are you and Tess uh... you know?
Oh no, actually, it's like...
she uh, she's hot and uh,
but I feel really resistant for some reason,
I can't quite put my finger on.
Well, maybe you're just gay.
No, no...
-You look beautiful. -Thank you.
You look very nice too.
you know, Maria's all alone tonight so is it okay if she hangs out with us?
Of course.
Oh come on kids, we have to take pictures. Come on, lets go guys.
Liz, you look beautiful.
Maria, you look absolutely perfect.
Isabel, Alex, Tess, come on. Lets take pictures.
Who'm I missing, uh Michael. mm hmm. Come on, lets go now.
Jim, come on, who'm I going to stand with? Is that everyone?
Oh, oh, this is going to be great,..
Sean.. Can you take the picture for me?
And there we were.
All together, with everything we'd all been through over the last two years.
The battles we'd fought,
the relationships that were formed,
the feelings for each other, stronger than any feelings we'd ever known could exist
And somehow in this moment
I had this really strong, really upsetting feeling,
that this was the last time we'd all be standing together.
Thank you sir. My lady...
-Thank you. - Your welcome.
You know, I gotta say, objectively speaking,
you are incredibly beautiful this evening.
You don't have to say that.
I know I don't.
Alex, thank you.
This means so much to me, and I know you didn't want to come, so thank you.
Well, you just gotta promise to not be any more beguiling otherwise
I'll be right back where I was.
I'm serious...
- Let's dance... - Let's dance.
Valenti...
Malamoot...
This is it big man, the big night.
Yeah, this is it.
I envy you Valenti.
All right.
Look at that compact little body.
All right.
Bet she's a firecracker in the sack.
I wouldn't know.
Yeah well, you will soon.
Hey listen, what do you say, you throw her to me for a couple hours after your done?
Dont you ever talk about my sister like that!
What?
- You wanna dance? - Sure.
Max, I just want to say that I feel really weird.
What do you mean?
I mean I saw you with Tess.
Saw me what with Tess?
I saw you with her.
I came by your house yesterday to talk to you about something and you were with her.
We were just trying to find out things about where I came from, that's all.
I know, I know, I mean, you know,
you keep saying that.
but you um, keep on leaving out this really pertinent fact. That you were married to her.
I feel like my whole life for the past year has been waiting for some really bad news.
Oh, you know, by the way Liz, I remember Tess, and I love her.
It's really paralyzing.
I know it's not easy.
No, Max, it can be. It can be really, really easy.
You know, we both just stop pretending.
What do you mean?
You know, maybe we're both just holding on to something that'll never be.
Max, maybe we should just let go.
I have been in so much pain.
This whole year.
and it's like I'm suffocating.
Liz...
I should go, you know, for Maria.
Right.
She's all alone tonight.
Go ahead.
Max...
Go ahead.
Um, Tess, uh you, you're,
- you're beautiful. - Kyle, please don't say that.
And the thing is, you're not just some girl,
I care about you.
Kyle, I don't... I just...
I think of you as family.
As a sister.
I dont' think it could be a romantic thing
I understand.
You know I'm disappointed,
but I understand.
- Okay, go. - No, no, me and you, we're a couple now.
Go!
What are you doing here?
Came her to dance.
Well you shoulda brought Juanita.
- How do you know about her? - I followed you to your pod.
Juanita's my dance teacher.
Your dance teacher...
Yeah, I can't dance.
And I knew this was a big deal for you
so I was taking dancing lessons.
Oh my God.
Wait, did you think Juanita was some chick I was boffing?
Oh my God...
How the hell did you find out about it in the first place...
Oh my God, I am like the stupidest person alive.
Juanita declared me unteachable, but if you want to risk personal injury...
I'll meet you inside in a minute, okay?
Sure.
You look sad.
I think it's really over.
You mean with Liz.
Yeah. I mean I,
I realize that, I guess that on some level that things were headed in that direction.
I think it's really actually over.
Alex, I'm going to do something, I said I wouldn't do.
Don't.
I asked you not to do that.
I remembered something else.
I don't know how to feel about it.
What do you remember?
Our first kiss.
It was at a party...
late at night.
And you...
I, I leaned in...
and whispered in your ear
and then you touched my cheek...
and then we just...
What are you doing here Parker?
I guess this is kind of an addictive sport.
We try to live responsible, logical lives.
But we can't tell our hearts how to feel.
Sometimes our hearts lead us to places we never thought we wanted to go.
And sometimes our hearts can be the sweetest, gentlest things we have.
Sometimes our hearts can make us
feel miserable, angry, excited and confused.
All at once.
But at least my heart is open.
And I'm writing again.
I'm feeling.
I'm breathing.